Mistress Victoria of San Francisco is another professional dominatrix who expresses herself exceptionally well:
I’ve been thinking about the phase of ‘Top syndrome’. This occurs with a lot of dommes when they first get into professional work, and get a really inflated ego. All the pampering, fun, dominance, financial comfort and independence from normality gives one feel an elated sense of pride. This is a totally natural phase; I went though it as well as several other dommes.
This happened to me when I first entered the ‘professional dominance’ world a few years ago in New York. I had just moved to Manhattan, turned 18, and was able to fulfill my lifetime fantasy of being a professional dominatrix. Of course, I loved it. The atmosphere, cool women, hot clothes, shoes, teasing and tormenting were perfect for my lifestyle. The financial boost was another bonus-I bought a whole new expensive wardrobe, was going out every night and living it up. I was really getting off on my dominance; this new found energy of superiority and power. I think this is fine, and am still quite aroused by it at times. Yet what I didn’t like was that I was rubbing these attitudes off on people outside the scene that really didn’t deserve it…coffee baristas, retail employees, clerks and waiters didn’t apply to the world I saw through my eyes. Yet if my coffee wasn’t quite right, or a waiter didn’t serve me as quickly as I liked, I felt annoyed that I wasn’t being treated as royally as I was in the BD/SM scene. I realized that I was even being a bit pushy and boastful with my friends, probably down right inappropriate at times. Now I look back (I’m glad I am able to look back and laugh!) and I say to myself, ‘who was that?’!
Luckily my approach has changed. I feel like I have a better control and understanding over the dominant powers I possess. I know when they are appropriate and when they are not. I also know that I am truely dominant, have a great sense of self-worth, and am powerful,
Originally posted 2006-08-01 15:48:56. Republished by Blog Post Promoter
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