http://www.femdomweblogs.com/by-women/mrs-claudia-femdom-marriage Blogs by dominant women and submissive men engaged in consensual power exchange and sadomasochistic play. Thu, 04 Mar 2010 03:12:03 -0800 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.1 hourly 1 http://www.femdomweblogs.com/by-women/mrs-claudia-femdom-marriage/comment-page-1#comment-24 submale61 Fri, 09 Mar 2007 17:06:12 +0000 http://www.femdomweblogs.com/by-women/mrs-claudia-femdom-marriage/#comment-24 i share an identical situation. i have been in a vanilla marrige for 39 years. i love my wife very much. but i am driven by my submissive and masochistic needs and desires. i have roamed the web for release for years - always to disappear when i get too close to a woman who may cause me concern and guilt about my wife. She knows about my secret and in the past has beaten me with the implements i have purchased for her. But this is a consequence of what she believes will bring me pleasure. It does not come from her desire to dominate, torture and control a man - which is what i need. Twice she has found a stash of the most extreme BDSM material i could download onto my computer. She insists that is tantamount to cheating on her. After the second time it is amazing that we are still together. Unfortunately, she now lives in denial of my desires and, internally, i try to deny them as well (at least until the urge becomes so strong that i cannot help but act upon it). As anyone who understands the dynamics knows, i can't deny them. my secret life continues, i masturbate to pictures and videos depicting pain inflicted upon hapless males at the mercy of sadistic females. To make a long story short, it is almost impossible for me to experience a vanilla orgasm. And my wife insists that the first time we have sex and i can't get an erection - i'm gone. i know that even after 39 years i should leave. But i do love her and would do anything to save my marriage. In that sense, i am totally submissive to her. If anyone can offer advice or counsel, i would appreciate your input. i share an identical situation. i have been in a vanilla marrige for 39 years. i love my wife very much. but i am driven by my submissive and masochistic needs and desires. i have roamed the web for release for years – always to disappear when i get too close to a woman who may cause me concern and guilt about my wife. She knows about my secret and in the past has beaten me with the implements i have purchased for her. But this is a consequence of what she believes will bring me pleasure. It does not come from her desire to dominate, torture and control a man – which is what i need. Twice she has found a stash of the most extreme BDSM material i could download onto my computer. She insists that is tantamount to cheating on her. After the second time it is amazing that we are still together. Unfortunately, she now lives in denial of my desires and, internally, i try to deny them as well (at least until the urge becomes so strong that i cannot help but act upon it). As anyone who understands the dynamics knows, i can’t deny them. my secret life continues, i masturbate to pictures and videos depicting pain inflicted upon hapless males at the mercy of sadistic females. To make a long story short, it is almost impossible for me to experience a vanilla orgasm. And my wife insists that the first time we have sex and i can’t get an erection – i’m gone.
i know that even after 39 years i should leave. But i do love her and would do anything to save my marriage. In that sense, i am totally submissive to her.
If anyone can offer advice or counsel, i would appreciate your input.

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