I quoted Chris’s blog in the prior entry. Here Annie tells of their beginnings.
Since day one, Chris has told me how beautiful and sexy I was. He cherished and adored me. But I never felt worthy. I was prone to depression, guilt and anxiety. In our relationship, I found myself slipping into the same patterns as my first marriage. I let Chris make the decisions, pay the bills and take care of me, all the while feeling worthless.
We had dabbled with D/s several years ago with me thinking I was the submissive. I think I was just using that as another way to justify not having to take responsibilty and make decisions for
myself and my life. Needless to say, I made a horrible submissive. I was anxious and unhappy with the role.
Chris is constitutionally a submissive. He has a very demanding and powerful career, but was having difficulty balancing this dominant career and his submissive feelings. He had no outlet for these feelings and had become increasingly restless and bored. Recently our sex life had become relatively non-existant. Due to both of our stressful jobs and the fact I work rotating shift work as a nurse, we were both exhausted and at a loss about what to do about our life. Neither of us was happy.
Chris in the past few months had been doing alot of research and reading about Female Domination. (I prefer Feminine Domination) He slowly started talking to me about it, downloaded articles for me and got me interested and curious.
This blog will be about our journey and more specifically about MY growth.
