Axe is a submissive guy who moved from the American Midwest to New York City. He writes candidly and touchingly. This is extracted from an essay on service oriented submission.
What if I’m so desperate to get that feeling that I’ll take whatever I can get? It’s certainly easier to find someone to clean for than to find someone to beat the hell out of me or to let me worship them. It helps because sexual attraction isn’t necessary in service.
I’ve always said I’ve enjoyed service for service sake and I wasn’t one of those guys that want’s to clean for someone in the nude. What if that’s just because I’ve never met someone I was hot for who I could clean for?
What if I was really attracted to someone sexually as well and was performing service for them? Would I wish my service had more sexual tones to it?
Am I being more selfish than I thought? Am I the one who’s using them since it’s giving me that feeling I can’t get anywhere else?
Originally posted 2008-01-10 14:14:25. Republished by Blog Post Promoter
