03/25, 2008
Aarkeybabble
Aarkey writes with terrible eloquence:
See, the thing is that when I go for lengths of time without domination, I can feel neglected, and even more importantly - unloved. It starts to fester inside my heart and I become frustrated, antsy, disappointed, bitter. And that sours and biases everything in my relationship. I continue to be gentle and generous outwardly, although over time I feel that I have been taken advantage of. I am doing my best to demonstrate my love, being as responsive and considerate to every want and need expressed, yet my one need which I’ve mentioned many times is not being returned. I don’t need to “swing from the chandeliers” every day,Virgina Slims, lipstick smears, black gloves… and what exactly does fetish mean to you? or even every week. Yes, I do sometimes need the whole 9 yards of BD/SM. But most of the time, in the day to day life, a few simple words, a few minutes of attention to this side of my person… a brief bit of teasing, of bondage, or direct instruction, a moment of role-play… the feeling of domination & submission - just a slight push, I can roll down the hill from there. That’s all I need, it seems simple to me. And yet… more often than not… nothing. Not until I feel almost dead inside, until the festering has grown severe.
